Fifth Notebook – Paragraphs 1531-1540
1531. Today I said to the Lord Jesus, “Do You see how many difficulties there are [to be overcome] before they will believe that You Yourself are the author of this work? And even now, not everyone believes in it.” Be at peace, My child; nothing can oppose My will. In spite of the murmuring and hostility of the sisters, My will shall be done in you in all its fullness, down to the last detail of My wishes and My designs. Do not become sad about this; I too was a stumbling stone for some souls.
1532. + Jesus complained to me of how painful to Him is the unfaithfulness of chosen souls, and My heart is even more wounded by their distrust after a fall. It would be less painful if they had not experienced the goodness of My heart.
1533. I saw the anger of God hanging heavy over Poland. And now I see that if God were to visit our country with the greatest chastisements, that would still be great mercy because, for such grave transgressions, He could punish us with eternal annihilation. I was paralyzed with fear when the Lord lifted the veil a little for me. Now I see clearly that chosen souls keep the world in existence to fulfill the measure [of justice].
1534. + I saw a certain priest’s efforts in prayer. His prayer is similar to that of the Lord Jesus in the Garden of Olives. Oh, if that priest [probably [Father Sopocko] only knew how pleasing to God that prayer was!
1535. O Jesus, I am locking myself in Your most merciful Heart as in a fortress, impregnable against the missiles of my enemies.
1536. Today I found myself in the presence of a certain dying person who was approaching death in my home neighborhood. I supported her with my prayers and, after a few moments, I felt for a short while pain in my hands, feet and side …
1537. January 27, 1938. During Holy Hour today, Jesus complained to me about the ingratitude of souls: In return for My blessings, I get ingratitude. In return for My love, I get forgetfulness and indifference. My Heart cannot bear this.
1538. At that moment, love for Jesus was enkindled so strongly in my heart that, offering myself for ungrateful souls, I immersed myself completely in Him. When I came to my senses, the Lord allowed me to taste a little of the ingratitude which flooded His Heart. This experience lasted for a short while.
1539. Today I said to the Lord, “When will You take me to Yourself I’ve been feeling so ill, and I’ve been waiting for Your coming with such longing!” Jesus answered me, Be always ready; I will not leave you in this exile for long. My holy will must be fulfilled In you. O Lord, if Your holy will has not yet been entirely fulfilled in me, here I am, ready for everything that you want, O Lord! O my Jesus, there is only one thing which surprises me; namely, that You make so many secrets known to me; but that one secret – the hour of my death – You do not want to tell me. And the Lord answered me, Be at peace; I will let you know, but not just now. Ah, my Lord, I beg Your pardon for wanting to know this. You know very well why, because You know my yearning heart, which is eagerly going out to You. You know that I should not want to die even a minute before the time which You have appointed for me before the ages.
Jesus listened with wondrous kindness to the outpourings of my heart.
1540. January 28, 1938. Today the Lord said to me, My daughter, write down these words: All those souls who will glorify My mercy and spread its worship, encouraging others to trust in My mercy, will not experience terror at the hour of death. My mercy will shield them in that final battle …